My Motorcycle Journey – Registration and Theory Lessons

When I was looking into getting my motorcycle license, I had wanted a detailed breakdown of what the journey would be like. I’m currently not even halfway but I think it’d be helpful to write about while the experience is still fresh. Hope this helps someone who’s looking to get started on their motorcycle journey.

Registration:

I registered online on the BBDC website. I was literally in bed when I did this. You do have to go down to the center to get an eyesight test, photo taken and a mandatory 15 minutes briefing within 14 days of registration. The people at the registration were super friendly and helpful with any questions I had. Overall a very pleasant start.

Registration costed $58.85. After you set up the account, you can top up however much into the account so you can start booking your lessons.

I had booked my Theory lessons immediately to get the process going. Not sure whether they’ve gone back to classroom lessons but I could take all 4 of my theory lessons (2 basic theory & 2 riding theory) at the comfort of my own home via Zoom. One particular Malay instructor that gave 2 of my lessons was so engaging, I regret not having taken his name down. He was patient in his teachings and kept us interested throughout what was kind of a boring topic to be talking about. Each lesson cost $17.12. So total cost for theory lessons was $68.48. I registered on 3 November and completed all my theory lessons by the end of the following week.

After completing your basic theory lessons, you should book basic theory practices and evaluation. I was pressured to immediately take 1 practice and evaluation right after which was a big mistake. Don’t let anyone dictate your learning process. You should know yourself and your learning speed. Take as many practices you need to pass. There are 5 books they let you practice on. All the questions that are in your evaluation and test will be in these books. Make sure to complete all books so you’re so sick of answering the questions that the test will be a total breeze for you.

After failing the first time, I took 3 practices before my evaluation on the same day. By my 3rd practice I was getting 100% on all my books. This is the level you want to be on before you get to your Basic Theory Test.

I also practiced on some apps on my phone. The questions are not exactly whats being asked but if you’re like me and like to be overly prepared, by all means try out “BTT Lah!” on playstore. Most of the apps I downloaded were super buggy but BTT Lah! was the most tolerable for me.

Something else that I was pressured to do was take my Riding Theory evaluation too quickly. DO NOT DO THIS. You can wait until you’re halfway through your practical lessons to do this. Riding Theory evaluation and test have an expiry date. Evaluation pass result will last you a month. Passed RTT result if I’m not wrong expires after a year. I paid for practices and evaluation only to have it expire on me because I couldn’t book my test in time.

You can apply for your Provisional Driving License after a passed Basic Theory Test. You do not need a Riding Theory Test pass to apply for this so it’s okay to wait to take your RTT.

Next post, I will go into what to expect for your first practical lesson!

The Magic

My story has been repeated countless times. To my closest friends, and also to strangers that became new ones. It has always been “isn’t he crazy?” and “can you believe what an asshole he is?” Afiqah introduced me to a few friends of hers that have all have recently been out of love. All of us have different stories but what we had in common was that we were all heartbroken over someone. It’s been so helpful talking to it to people who somewhat understand the pain. Somehow I still feel like I don’t belong in the “Lonely Hearts” group because I don’t feel this way. I don’t feel like I’ve lost the love of my life like they have.

Certain song lyrics do trigger pain, hurt, and anger.

“It’s like a slap in the face how quickly how I was replaced.” – You Oughta Know by Alanis Morrisette

“I know you well enough to know you never loved me” Cute Without The E – Taking Back Sunday

“Every heart break makes it hard to keep the faith.” Million Reasons by Lady Gaga

“You stare at the phone, he still hasn’t called and you feel so low you can’t feel nothing at all and you flashback to when we said forever and always.” – Forever and Always by Taylor Swift

Out of everyone, I had the numbers. Everyone’s relationship lasted months and mine was a little over 3 years. Everyone expects me to be the worst of them all but most seem surprised at how well I’ve been. I don’t feel the need to cyber stalk him. I don’t keep anything sentimental for “just in case we get back together”. Deleted every single photo. I already cringe reading my blog post fresh off the break up. Because to be honest, I wrote that for him. I wanted him to read it and regret everything. I wanted him to change his mind. I wanted so badly to salvage it.

Truth is, I’m not completely okay. My heart still aches for him. I still think about him. About our time together. Our travels. My fingers sometimes type out his name on facebook when I see something funny or cute that I’d usually tag him on. I remember the touch of his hands, the arch of his back, the texture of his hair.

But all of that were just physical memories. I spent a lot of time with this person. He was a companion. I do believe I felt some kind of love for him, but I’m not sure it’s really what I thought it was.

We didn’t share our deepest darkest secrets with each other. He’d cringe at any real thoughtful or genuine conversation we had. He didn’t like holding hands. I love holding hands. He didn’t like hugs. I give good hugs. Our kisses didn’t linger. I didn’t feel butterflies. Saddest one of it all, I to this day, don’t know how he likes his coffee.

A memory I had of us was in bali. I remember it so vividly. The hotel staff asked us what drinks we wanted that morning. He asked for coffee. “I didn’t know you drank coffee?” I said. He replies, “I drink it everyday before work.” It was a passing conversation but somehow that stayed with me. We had been together over 2 years at this point and I didn’t know this very basic thing about him. I wrote in a previous blog about getting to know so many details about a person’s life when you’re in a relationship and how that all goes to shit after you break up. Somehow in the 3 years we were together, we barely touched the surface of getting to know each other. I tried in the beginning but he was never interested to get to know me so I gave up getting to know him too. We were just bad for each other.

So here I am at 2:30 in the morning, feeling guilty. All this while I’ve been calling him an asshole, for leaving me. My biggest fear was that he was pretending to love me. That he didn’t mean anything he said. It’s probably true but I’m realising that my biggest insecurity was that he felt for me, the way I felt for him. I was trying so hard to make it love. I romanticised everything we did so it’d look like we had it. This crazy little thing called love. I fantasised about it so much, and I finally had a vessel to live out that fantasy with. Unfortunately, it was so forced and unnatural. He wasn’t a sunset kinda guy. He wasn’t a roses kinda guy. The only times I ever remember really liking him was when he was drunk. He would be very sweet to me when he had alcohol in his system. It’s weird.

We’ve sat together, watching the beauty of the universe. We’ve kissed as the skies turned purple. It was so magical. In theory.

But I didn’t feel the magic in my heart. I really wanted to.

His sister once said to me “You know he really loves you. I know my brother and I’ve never seen him this in love with anyone.” I can’t remember how this conversation started but I remember feeling panic. I don’t think I responded anything verbally but I think she may have caught on. It’s not what you’re suppose to feel when someone says something like that. Remembering that he’s only sweet drunk kinda sticks a pin in my heart a little because I’m afraid what people say about drunk people are true. That its when their true unfiltered feelings come out. : / But then again, his sister is kinda full of shit too so I’m hoping it’s the case for this one.

Because now I sit here feeling guilty. I remember that day when we were fine until I ran into an old guy friend of mine. He looked so good and I found myself thinking, “why didn’t I end up with him instead?”. I cried myself to sleep that night because I felt like I was cheating on him. When in reality, I was honest with myself for the first time in awhile and it scared the living shit out of me. I felt like I was betraying him.

I still stand by my thoughts of him as an asshole. What he did post break up is simply unforgivable. And pretty fucking psychotic if I’m being honest. No matter how we may or may not have not loved each other, I still showed him respect. I never cheated on him when he may have cheated on me. I didn’t try to move on too quickly like how he’s moving on quickly. I never tried to hurt him like how he’s tried to hurt me.

But I also never felt for him like how he may have felt for me.

I miss being in a relationship, but I’m glad I’m not a hypocrite and a liar anymore. It’s a lot better being alone than constantly trying to convince yourself you’re happy.

“I’m an addict for dramatics. I confuse the two for love.”
Liar liar – Taking Back Sunday

My good days

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I Am Tired

There were days where things would just fall right into place.Stressing over things before I really need to; fixing things that aren’t broken. I’ve always trained my brain to do as such. It’s the worst habit I have. Somehow, my fears didn’t manifest itself. I’ve been lucky but never ungrateful. I show gratitude to the universe, thank my lucky stars every time.

But when the strong winds bring about the dark clouds, I’m never truly prepared. No matter how I worry things to death, it still hits me like a brick. They all come about at once. All my petty little problems manifests itself into something bigger.

I think about doing things. Very bad things.

How can I say forever and always all this time but within a day, think maybe otherwise. Within an instant with no warning my brain tells me to just quit. Did I lie to myself? Is that possible? Maybe I’ve kept resentment in my heart and today was the day it was at its brink. It just shuts off.

Worst of it all is I feel no sadness. I feel no anger. I just feel… tired.

Just. Very tired.

MY BABY NEPHEW

I feel so blessed every single time he smiles at me. What a god send this child is. He has made our lives so much more beautiful. I have never felt so protective and unconditional love for anyone more than this miniature human. Proudest Tia in the world!

The first time I got to hold him

Kat Von D’s Liquid Lipstick

Beautiful packaging and amazing texture. I’m so incredible excited about this purchase 😍

   
    
   

So Freaking Beautiful

Decal fun!

Unboxing a Refurbished 13′ Macbook Pro

Ola amigos! So after much research and deliberation (with myself), I’ve decided to go for a refurbished macbook pro, as compared to a brand new one. Most of mac users do recommend going the reburb route as there is not much of a difference in terms of how it runs and how long it will last you.

My initial battle with this decision was that I wasn’t getting a brand new macbook. It sounds like as if they were throwing me hefty bill for a rejected laptop. In reality, refurbished means there was initially a broken part that was found with this particular machine and it was replaced and thoroughly inspected, before releasing it again at a significantly cheaper price. The greatest part about this is you can buy a refurb mac directly from apple, so you KNOW it ain’t dodgy.

I bought mine through the apple store app, which honestly was such a pleasant and easy process, it made me wonder why I haven’t just been using this to buy all my apps products. Idiot proof, hassle free. You can sign in with your apple id that would already have your credit card details on there. How incredibly convenient can it get?

Just like that

I got myself a 13.3 inch Macbook Pro with Retina Display 8GB memory, for $1,298.

A lot of past refurb mac buyers do warn that the macbook would come in a less glamorous box then if you buy a brand new one. So if you’re the type to horde boxes, then maybe this isn’t for you. If you order it before 3pm, they’ll deliver it the next day. You can choose from the time slots given: 9am – 12pm, 12pm – 5pm or 5pm – 9pm. I opted for the earliest time slot and it arrived at about 10am.

There is a tracking page on the app that lets you keep track of where your laptop is traveling to and from. Gotta be honest, I stalked the heck of the package. haha

And before I knew it, here it was!

Not so glamorous. The box is sealed with tape so you’ll need to knife it open.

First thing you see when you open the box. Just in case you have any doubts about the authenticity of your purchase haha

Brand new accessories

My new baby securely tucked in

Wrapped in plastic. Looks absolutely brand new

Sealed so you can be assured it hasn’t been tempered with.

Beautiful

So there you have it. I’m currently typing on this macbook and am absolutely obsessed with it. Setting it up takes a bit of time. I did get a little jammed up at the file vault disk encryption page while setting up.

My first rainbow wheel on this mac!

Took about 15 minutes before it went to my desktop screen, asking me to plug in my charger as it wasn’t done encrypting whatever the fuck it was encrypting. Took another 7 Minutes. So if you don’t see yourself really using this feature, disable it when setting up so you can save some time. Took about another 10 minutes to update my software but after that it was smooth sailing.

So I hope this was helpful to you guys that were wondering how exactly a refurbished macbook looks like. It still as gorgeous as ever. It’s apple after all. 🙂

New Favourite Spoilage

My boyfriend is ❤️ part 2

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